6th of October, 2022

Be kind to yourself

I can get terribly rude while talking to myself. It’s easy to judge, when you are just some inner voice, without any real possibility to take an actual action. Also, no one knows me better than myself. I know all my weak spots, and it’s just a matter of a few straight-to-the-point sentences, to make me feel like a failure. A few years ago, this kind of “encouragement” would be really helpful. I couldn’t really chill out, due to the constant pressure from myself. It forced me to act on the problem. It may not have been the best approach, but it certainly worked.

Now, I have to remind myself, that I’m not the old me. There’s no need for the tension anymore. I already achieved more, that I could dream of back then. I’m taking care of all life aspects that don’t work, on a daily basis. There’s no need for me to still participate in the rat race. I don’t have to constantly put effort into revolutionary projects, bright ideas and life changing activities. There’s time for personal development, as well as time for leisure. If I don’t feel like working in my free time, I should just let go, instead of being anxious about it.

Be kind to yourself. Have as much patience for your actions, as you have for behaviours of others. There’s no need for any hate speech toward yourself. Keep your head clear and appreciate where you are now. It won’t magically disappear after a period of stagnancy.

What I wish for, is a healthy relationship with myself. I’m quick to forget about my successes, while all my failures likes to pop up, whenever I’m vulnerable. But I see the problem and understand where it comes from. Next time, I’m going to be prepared. No more fighting with myself - from now on, it’s a combat between me and the circumstances beyond my control. And what we do with these? Ignore them!